This post isn't really a positive one, I'm afraid. I posted this anyway because I want to be real with you, Reader, so not only do you get to share my joys and triumphs, you get to experience my pain as well.
Usually I'm rejuvenated and refreshed by the rain, but today I just feel...melancholy. I'll even add another word to melancholy. Melancholy and discouraged. I don't know what it is about today. Maybe it's because I haven't been feeling too motivated as of late.
Perhaps my lack of productivity is getting me down. Or the fact that I had a Spanish test today. Either or.
Let me ramble about Spanish for a bit. I just need to pen this out. (Or type, in my case) I love languages, always have, and Spanish is no exception. It's just gorgeous to listen to and to speak. But the class...ugh. I tested into Intermediate Spanish. From three years of high school Spanish.
Let me describe this gap for you.
It's like someone dropped you in a foreign country all by yourself with no money, no technology, and no connections. All you have is a Spanish dictionary and the clothes on your back. Your objective? Make a million bucks by the end of the semester.
Frustrating? Thought so. I feel like all I do in that class is fail. And I hate to sound like a whiner, but it's true. No matter how hard I try, it isn't good enough for my professor. No matter how hard I study, no matter how much work I do, it doesn't even matter in the end.
Sorry to dump this all on you guys. I just need a vacation. But don't we all sometimes?
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